January 23, 2013 @ 7:56 PM

I haven't been writing in this blog for a really long time! (3 years actually if I'm not wrong..)

It feels like I'm burdening someone if I actually talk to them about my problems in school and everything, so I shall treat this blog as my best friend!

Life has never been more difficult. JC2 year is just impossible to cope with. I've been trying to reduce my responsibilities so that I won't compromise my studies but honestly, things aren't going well.

I stopped piano lessons in June last year because I convinced myself that the weekly lesson is taking too much of my 'study time'. Then I told myself that running for choir admin comm will only make my life harder. So after 6 months, I finally realised I have not progressed from where I left it off at all. All these 'sacrifices' were in vain because I have not gained a single thing along the way. I convinced myself that I'll be better off, but in reality I am still the same old wanqi who uses her new freedom to procrastinate.

As January 2013 is coming to an end, what have I learnt? Am I really trying my very best? Or am I merely giving in to temptations? am I stretching myself enough? Because I feel that I've been standing in the same spot for the past 4 years.

There are fireworks bombarding me from the sky. A new one erupts before I have the chance to recover and look up again. Everything is so overwhelming, but after all these, I'll be able to enjoy the peaceful night sky. So the question is, do I have the will to stay out till the end of the firework show? Or will I end up running to the nearest shelter?

self-contentment. What Anderson choir and Mslim said really triggered me to think about my current lifestyle. So this shall be my daily goal.

To try my best and live with no regrets. To feel contented everyday.

It's time to wake up from this dream.